Friday, December 30, 2005

what am i still missing?

...So Joshua said to the Israelites:"How long will you wait before you begin to take possessions of the land that the LORD, the God of your fathers, has given you?" (Joshua 18:3)

Sunday, December 25, 2005

something is bound to change very soon

For some time now (like the last 3-4 months, especially during the move) the following verse has been in my mind: The LORD had said to Abram, "Leave your country, your people and your father's household and go to the land I will show you." (Gen 12:1). God does actually say some more things after that, blessings etc., but just that verse has been on my mind.
When I look back it seems to be a lot like what I've just gone through. I've left my country, Switzerland, and even my people in Indiana, my father's and mother's and any other relative's household to move to San Diego.. not quite sure why.. God just kept saying "I'll show you when you get there, just go now, you'll see!"
Just in the last few days now I’ve been searching for God more intensely and I sort of stumbled across the passage in Joshua where God leads the Israelites into the promised land after wandering around in the desert for 40 years – funny, I just finished reading Rick Warren’s book “ the purpose driven life", a 40 day study.
Anyway, so they cross the Jordan, then God has all the men circumcised (whatever that could mean in my life) -> Then the LORD said to Joshua, "Today I have rolled away the reproach of Egypt from you." So the place has been called Gilgal to this day. <- (the whole story's in Joshua 3-5)
Then they celebrate Passover and the very next day they eat food made of the produce of the land and …there is no more manna. 40 years of eating manna every day, God’s miraculous provision in the desert, then they come to the land God promised them (Canaan) and switch to the food that's there.
So what does all this have to do with me?? I don’t know! But I do know that God is doing something very soon.. in fact He’s been doing a lot of great things lately.. but that’s just a foretaste, right? Can it be that God is leading me out of the desert i feel i've been wandering through and into one "flowing with milk and honey" ??

Friday, December 02, 2005

i asked for that, didn't i?

finally, i have somewhat come to a decision for what i want to do in the future. lately i've been very occupied by figuring out what church i want to belong to, what kind of ministry to be a part of, and what career path to choose and get a college degree..and how in the world can i get enough work at Starbucks to pay for food, clothing and shelter (and a couple of other "add-ons").
i'm leaning very much towards going to college and becoming a teacher, preferably elementary school. so i need to talk to all kinds of advisors at all kinds of schools around here to figure out what my options are. another option would be to specialize my teaching in science where my advantage would be that i could (if it works out) work for a lab and at the same time take courses to teach science which might be reimbursed by that company too. and that kind of a job would most likely also pay enough to pay the rent and food.
church and ministry.. i've gone to the rock a few times and liked it a lot but to me it somehow seems too impersonal. although i'm well plugged into a small group and feel very at home there. but i don't feel it's the church where i will tithe and use my talents. i've been to South Coast Community Church in Pacific Beach a few times as well and i feel very much more at home there. it's much smaller than the rock and still has a close family kind of feel to it. plus they need a drummer and that's definitely my passion. and i've tried to contact the rock many times about drumming there and never heard back.
in the mean time i've hung out with one of the worship teams at SouthCoast and had lunch with the associate pastor. i feel like i've already known these people for a long time.
maybe with all these little situations God is sort of forcing me into the right direction..i asked for that, didn't i?