wow, it's been a while

really, i've been thinking about updating a lot lately.. but i've just been busy and so much new stuff keeps happening. when i get a chance though, i'll put in some very important new things in here. for now, here's something i just read in the MorningStar Word for the Week:
"Most of the troubles we suffer in our own lives are the result of things we try to do without God. Many are the result of choices we make without even consulting Him. We may think that this is just what we were talking about, how the Lord does not want to control us, but has set us free to make our own choices. That is correct, but there is a difference between God dictating to us what He wants and Him wanting to walk with us just as He did with Adam, having fellowship in our choices.
The most basic purpose for which God created mankind was for fellowship. We are not maturing, and we are not fulfilling our purpose unless we are growing in this fellowship."
That's a something i've been chewing on for the last week or so.. the situation seems to be clear: yesterday my car stopped working, on the weekend i just moved and am barely making it finacially, i keep looking for lab jobs and somehow the hiring companies keep closing their openings for no real reason when i apply for a position..
I really long to have the kind of fellowship Adam and Eve, Abraham, or David had and it seems that that's when i have the biggest struggles.